Working a lot... I worked 7 out of 8 days with a class tagged on the end. Had a rough case during that time where we lost a baby girl. She was born too, too early to live. I know God has that sweet baby in his care but the pain of the parents is what kills me. Thank God I was working with a GREAT crew that night, all with strong belief systems. I got to watch one of my dear friends baptize the baby before she died. What a blessing!
I made the final amends on my amends list... what a relief! I though for the last 20 years this person hated me only to find out it was just one more lie Jessica's DNA Dad had told me. What I learned thru this... no one "got me started using dope" except for me. I may have started using WITH someone, but no one forced anything up my nose. I wish my mother could find some peace in that. Life is way too short to hold onto anger, hatred & BLAME. I was a big girl when I started screwing up & have no one to blame but myself. May 1st I will have been clean & sober for 9 yrs 9 months & 1 day, the exact amount of time I drank & used. WHAT AN ANNIVERSARY!!!!
So in celebration I'm gonna be the designated driver for another girls night out!
Speaking of girls night out... earlier this week 4 of us decided to go out to happy hour/dinner. I was the designated driver. What I didn't know is that they had planned a little surprise party for me with gifts & everything! I turned 40 at the beginning of the year but I didn't really tell anyone & besides, I was sicker than a dog. Thanks Sara, Cristina & Narissa. You guys ROCK. Narissa even played with my balls & screwed me in the mouth LOL - you crazy girl!! Thanks for saving me!! You took total control of the situation. Thanks God you were there!
I got a new tattoo yesterday. It's BEAUTIFUL. It's a Henna looking design of flowers. I had it done on the top of my foot. I didn't think I could find anyone to do it but Bear from Red Dragon Tattoo kicked butt! I'll post a picture of it soon. I'm going back this week for more work (Duck gave me his$200 gift certificate - thanks Babe). I'm finishing the tribute to my recovery/sobriety on my back with some writing & I'm getting chinese cherry blossoms as a tribute to my "Godparents" and the love of the chinese culture they taught me. In chinese, the cherry blossom represents strength, dominance & sexuality of women. I'd say that's the perfect tattoo for me.
Jessica goes to the DNA Donor's house this weekend. His new wife left him almost 3 weeks ago, slapped him with a restraining order & had the utilities shut off! He drove another women to seek shelter at The Haven (a bettered women's shelter). Couldn't have happened to a nicer guy as far as I'm concerned. YOU DON"T BEAT UP WOMEN!!
Not much else has been going on. Our basement dweller is leaving for Florida in about 5 or 6 weeks to go to school. Duck & I will probably go for a ride this weekend. The John Swett Reunion is in a month. I've dropped 30 pounds since January 1st but I'd like to try to loose 10 more before the reunion. Better stop trying & just do it, huh?
I think I'll try to go back to bed for a bit. Damn night shift hours reek havoc on my sleeping patterns. I'm becoming a night owl. But this is the sleepy time at work so maybe I can actually fall asleep in bed for a few hours before I have to get up and live during daylight hours.... goodnight.... or maybe it's good morning! Have a GREAT weekend!
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